巨蟹的我

巨蟹座终极完美分析
巨蟹是心软的，容易被感动，即使表面看起来总是有一副硬硬的壳，但那壳子底下是一颗柔软敏感到极至的内心。它们面对一份感情是犹豫再三的，不要说它们懦弱，它们只是明白自己是容易受伤的。他们对感情抱有信仰，相信纯真、相信天长地久，所以有时是挑剔的。
这是一层表面坚硬的壳，其实攻克轻而易举，因为蟹蟹有一颗柔软的心。
蟹蟹恋爱了，这时的它们变的很粘人，很婆妈，因为你是它的中心，它会为你考虑很多，饭吃了吗？天气会变了吗？记得带伞哦！路上车多，慢点走哦！……..诸如此类！
蟹蟹是深情而痴情的，爱上一个人会爱的很深，即使明知道没有结果也很难自拔。这是巨蟹的一种固执，想要得到的东西，往往不会轻易放手。有时，一段没有结果的恋情会成为蟹蟹的生活重心。这无疑是痛苦的，但又难以自拔。然而，巨蟹的不安全感又在内心大叫着放弃，所以这时的蟹蟹总是在坚持和放弃的巨大矛盾中苦苦煎熬着。学会放弃是蟹蟹的一门功课.
当然，如果蟹蟹真的决定放弃了，它的坚决会让所有人吃惊。
要记住：除了你自己，没有人可以伤害到你
蟹子是痴情的，但又不善于表达，面对自己心爱的人拘谨、放不开。它们的幽默感此刻变得生涩。
蟹子是深情的，但又不善于把握，为什么一次次控制不住自己的情绪，说出明知不该讲的话？
分裂而善于幻想的寄居蟹在说巨蟹之前，先说说几个一直以来欣赏的几个偶像，他们都不同，但他们有一个共同点，就是，他们都是巨蟹男。周星驰，王家卫，罗大佑，李宗盛，梁朝伟，张学友……一般在每次排行榜中总是靠末的巨蟹们，看起来并没有很明显的个性，但是，他们在艺术方面的直觉和敏锐却是别人难以匹敌，从这几个人名里就不难看出。他们在生活中都是温文尔雅的，被动的，甚至往往是沉默的，但是在他们的电影，歌曲中，却展露出令人惊异的才华，让我们总是不由自主的为之倾倒。当周星驰让我们笑得泪水横流的时候，我们也早听闻其实戏外的他认真严肃，不苟言笑，对待朋友和情人都很苛刻；我们知道在戏里演什么都神形毕似的影帝梁朝伟同性格南辕北辙的射手刘嘉玲20多年同居，至今都不愿结婚
他总是说，其实他的人生就是在戏里；我们知道张学友出道前曾经是黑社会的小混混，天天宿醉，自暴自弃，也看到张学友成名后依然为了家庭拼命打拼，几近崩溃……
这就是巨蟹，其实，最能说明巨蟹特质的，就是－－分裂无论是哪一种蟹，他们都有着分裂的思想。他们渴望安定，也渴望出人头地，他们内心充满艺术的灵感，夸张的幻象，但是在现实生活中，他们总是低眉顺眼，很难真正展露心中的狂想。所以在艺术的舞台上，他们反而得以施展，让心中奇异的狂想放大到极致，他们可以将任何一首歌一个角色演绎的入木三分，所有来自于生活中被动的接受，在艺术的殿堂上得到了最好的宣泄，所以巨蟹真的应该属于舞台。即使没有好的歌喉没有好的外形，但是他们有良好的感受力和表现力，他们的性格实际上更像是一只寄居蟹，在真正自我的生活中，他们常常将自己包裹的很紧，但在诠释和演绎别人的时候，他们那内心的感情得到了释放.
巨蟹座的另一个长处是他们有着哲学的思考力世界因两股力量相互消长，而水象就是典型的阴柔之力。水象星座的人有一种天生的宇宙观，巨蟹也是如此，加之他们天生有母爱的情结，所以他们的思考往往带有着人性化的关怀。所以从事与艺术相关的行业的巨蟹，无论如何都可以算是幸运的巨蟹，因为能够得以发挥天然的性格所长。但是不是每个巨蟹都有这样的机会，所以大多数巨蟹都会感到自己的压抑和痛苦。他们不是没有渴望，相反他们需求很多，渴望很多，但是他们总是躲在自己的壳里做着各式各样的幻梦，只是在想，很少实施。所以如果你看到的总是低眉顺眼的巨蟹实际上并不是真正的巨蟹。那只是巨蟹的一个假象.
永远无法抹去的自卑巨蟹们其实是自我感觉很好的心高气傲的一群人，但是却又难以克服时时刻刻想躲进壳里的自卑感。他们天生多疑和敏感，碰到困难，就先躲进壳里，自欺欺人，在梦中编织自我的安全感，而从来没有想到如何主动将危机转化为机遇。他们对待困难的消极方式，使他们总很难真正木秀于林，他们总在捕捉他们认为最好的时机，但是那个时机却总是无法到来，其实世间哪有万全之策？当蟹蟹们艰苦的自我互博之时，大好时机已经失去。但是要改变这种天生的自卑感确乎很难，蟹蟹们几乎完全不由自主。
怀旧是巨蟹们的人生主旋律巨蟹们非常怀旧。他们喜欢旧东西，怀恋旧感情，对家庭有着天然的眷恋。泛黄的相片，褪色的丝带，尘封的梳妆台……所有一切带有浪漫情调的旧物，都可以让他们独自神伤，黯然追想，他们总是沉浸在过去的回忆里，永远记得年少时的孤寂敏感，永远记得初恋情人，多年后仍然四处找寻初恋情人的消息，慰籍多年来始终保持新鲜的记忆。所以王家卫的电影总喜欢用这样的句式开头：多年以后……　
忽冷忽热患得患失的爱情他们天生悲观，永远需要多一点，更多一点的安全感。为什么他们如此需要安全感，因为他们天生就没有安全感，所以他们是很容易恐慌的，所以他们也就变得非常的多疑和猜忌。爱上一个巨蟹是要仔细思量的，因为他们会突然忽冷忽热，突然置之不理，突然恶言相向，但是其实他们并非不爱你，他们有时候是在跟自己呕气。他们渴望天天24小时同你粘在一起，他们对爱人有着强烈的占有欲，恨不得掏心掏肺给你，他们关注你的点点滴滴，小到为你买一支发卡，大到帮你选择哪路公车……他们都费劲心思，他们时时刻刻每件事都为你考量，但又因为付出的不停增加而变得越来越担心害怕，会不会得不到对等的爱。所以他们会突然变得冷淡了，也许只因为你一个眼神，他们就觉得你已经不如从前，于是开始无休止的试探，他们说话总是转弯抹角，但是却总希望你永远清晰表态，假设某天你也含糊了一下，那就完了，蟹蟹们立刻条件反射的开始惴想出无数个虚拟场景，在无尽的悲观中，意淫出种种悲惨场面，然后再见你时，就已经是冷口冷面，甚至说出无比绝情的话语－－所以，你和巨蟹的他们，是要努力去磨合的，给他们足够的信赖和安全，他们回馈你的，绝对让你感动的热泪盈眶。
虚伪包装下易感的心实际上巨蟹善于伪装。他们喜欢笑，无论何时何地，他们常常微笑，也许这笑容有时候让人欣慰，但有时候却会让人感到非常的虚伪。当然巨蟹们也总有自己的小奸小坏，但是他们虚伪的前提却总是先为了保护自己。他们对自己应得的利益是淄铢必较，有时候会让人感到他们是不是很小心眼，但是，在朋友聚会等场合上，他们又绝对是豪爽大方，主动抢着付账的人。所以其实巨蟹是个公私概念很明确的人，他们对该得的绝对毫不客气，而对待朋友，他们又觉得其实这点钱根本不算什么。他们是眷恋朋友和家人的，他们基本都有些喜欢酒。而且酒量都还不错，因为他们眷恋那种宾客相尽欢的气氛，更眷恋着家的和乐融洽之感。所以巨蟹们喜欢做饭，即使不会做饭也对美食有天然偏爱，他们懂得享受居 > 家生活，所以巨蟹们有个理想婚姻是最快乐的事情。问题是巨蟹们却常常选择晚婚或不结婚，因为他们多疑又害怕，他们总是对新幻境充满怀疑，对新的家庭又向往又拒绝，在自我矛盾中，不断蹉跎了年华。
自己为自己创造安定感觉巨蟹们总是不安，这是一种不好的感觉，因为如此，许多巨蟹枉然蹉跎，终日郁郁。其实，巨蟹们可以尝试自己为自己创造安定的感觉。找一个家里人都喜欢的对象，建立一个自己的家，也许巨蟹会发现自己会变得安稳很多。找个摩羯是比较理想的选择。或者找一个自己的爱好，倾注所有的心血，自己也会变得安定很多。当然蟹蟹们也许会说，你这是站着说话不腰疼啊，要是那么容易的话，还用得着你说吗？呵。但是，无论怎样，当我们自己意识到自己的不安，就该努力去克服他，其实壳外的世界，没有那么可怕，这是真的。
总的说来，巨蟹们很可爱，尤其是在艺术上有成就的那些人，他们创造的都是令人仰止的丰碑，所以巨蟹们不必没来由自卑，其实你们都很出色。


This is somewhat true to a certain extent, really touched, as if someone read my mind or understand me.

Extract from a Fowarded mail.

THE REUNION 15,16 and 17 AUG 2008

15th Aug, SiewFoong came to NTU and v had our supper with Youliang, Lyien, Calwin @ AhFang outside NTU. Hmph, forgot to take picture le. We had our dinner every 6pm together last time and it will never happen again, so sad...

The Next day, Siew Foong and I went to IMM to shop for her stuff so that she can bring it to UK. she bought 30 plus items from Daiso, @~@. Then we take our lunch at PepperLunch. I think this is my first time this year, I miss PepperLunch. We ordered a combo to share as sf says she wants to treat me, Haha. However, I seriously think that the salmon pepper rice is the best.
We plan to go to orchard as i need to pass something to my uncle, when v about to leave, Pin called and said she reach the airport already, so we decided to hangout at IMM for another hour to wait for Pin.

Jiayi and Bird @ Pepperlunch

After that, we went to Kovan for Hanhsien's farewell as he is off to US. CJC top scholar. Actually, Pin and I just crash in as he is SiewBang( aka SiewFong)'s Buddy.

MY ROOM!!!! HALL 7, should i say ROCKS???

@KOVAN

Evelyn and I, the food there is really nice! Its all Home-Cooked.

The picture below is some kind of crab-like seafood, forgot what they call it, but it is chewy and fresh.

After the party, we went to ClarkQuay because we want to take picture.

On the bridge that I shouted last time.. Haha

3 sisters that are separated apart, Jiayi@ NTU, SF @ Exerter UK, Pin @ Nottingham UK.

Waiting for the train @ ClarkeQuay Mrt

17th Aug,Sf going back for her UK seminar and we departed at BoonLay Mrt, out last shot for this reunion. Me and Pin ate Yakun for breakfast. This girl says the never eat before though she stayed here for 4 years, and she says it is nice, Haha.

Back to CJC Hostel. This is a small diverted road beside PIE and opposite the place where the Mas Selamat stayed before that. We need to walk pass this long way and climb up the slope to reach CJCH.
Halfway on the slope. Here is where PE is held, the track and the grandstand.
In the CJCH lobby, Leng shiew, Yean Thing( my force to blog). me and Pin.
Jia Yi and Pin in room 216, My room before that. Seriously, I miss the curfew as curfew enable me to study and do tutorials, right now, I juz cant study from 8 to 10, lights never off @ 12am, makes me thinks that the night is still early. Haha.... and I miss people knock on my door and give me surprise @12 midnight on my birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!

Afterthat, Pin and I go to Oldham Hall to look for her junior, then we went to Orchard to meet the T27s...

The ex-Pw group... Live a Life without Butts... shufen, jiayi, nette, meiyi

The girls at somerset MRT - Jy,Nette, eelin,pin, Jean,meiyi, shufen

Jia yi and shufen @ sakura international buffet The 2 future doctors, meixia and ming sheng-(two on my left)

@orchard, watching table tennis...

Thanks for shufen who initiated the reunion. Those who came, though I am not that active in class, U guys are my best classmates. Thanks for Jean fetch me all the way back to NTU!!!!

Hall 7, Ok, I juz like the silent night here, but not the inconveniences during the weekends! Accompany Pin to walk to Hall 15 to find Job. walk about 40 min plus visiting...

This is the most memorable weekend and the weekend that reminded me the life in the past 2 years. They are my first and forever friends I met in Singapore, Pin and SiewFoong. Thanks for being my side when I first came, I still remember the strawberry * the first day I moved into the hostel. Our Jc sketch who everyone likes it, credits goes to the HK director and the brilliant actor and actress. The gossip we talked till midnight and cry together, the time we sleep together, the time we mug with the table lamp, the time we gather to study at study room 3, vending machine, grandstand.... And my dear Juniors, SiowSuyi, Leng shiew, yeanthing, Samantha, Shufei, Yineng, SHufei ,Xinyi. Miss U guys sooo much!! Keep in touch OK.

For the T27, hope that we can have the gathering annually and everyone can make it on that day. I enjoy being in T27 , I'll never forget the Karang Guni project, Project work, Farewell, random Class outings, the BBQ and Much much more. U guys makes me as part of the class and makes me never felt alone in Singapore. Thanks.

Post Foc- Haribe

HARIBE's OUTING
After orientation, we decide to explore the hits part in SG, so we went to clarkequay, not clubbing but juz walking and enjoy the view along singapore river.....


NTU ARTS SCH, THE ADM, a very beautiful place


THIS IS CLARKE QUAY, MY FIRST VISIT AFTER 2 YRS AND 7 MONTHS in SG

This is the place we play game on the bridge, and did alot of stupid stuff. E.g, asking phone number from the foreigners, dancing on the street, I shouted " I am the Queen!!" haha



TURKISH ICE_CREAM, quite nice, but the vendor is very funny

A very famous Pub and Restaurant with a hospital theme, CLINIC.

Anothe major outing, NDP 08@ Marina Bay


This is what we waited for, haha, it was NICE, AMAZING.......


the backgroup is where the NDP performance is, too bad I can only listen to the music.

Outside SUNTEC CITY, a 2/3D object.. HARIBE ROCKS! We loiter in cityhall till 1200 and take a nightbus back, i took us 1 and the half to 2 hours to reach BoonLay. Anyway, It was so memorable and fun, Thanks Haribe.

Besides all these outing, we gather for dinner almost everyday. Timetable as below

Back to Sg, Back to Sch

Abandoned my blog for months, Thing say" faster go and update ur blog laa!!'
Haha, Ok... I am doing it now!
It had been a busy months for me( July ,Aug, Sept......) because Orientations, Lectures, Tutorials, ECA!!! BLAH BLAH BLAH.
Freshman Orientation MSA

21 JuLy- 25 July 08

On the 20th night, I took a night train to Singapore with my new roomie and ofcoz my bestie and the serembanians who about to study in NTU.
And I have learnt not to take a night train back to SG!
I reach woodlands around 8am with 3-4 bags full. Then few seniors gathered us and yeah, go check-in and sleep..( this is what i thought)

Ok, I have to say something that I stay in a Hall that isolated from the others Hall, and my room was so dusty when I frist went in, so no more sleeping and prepare for the admin stuff, alot to do...., check-in, pay fees , medical......

8pm, we are sorted into groups and this is the time where friendships begins..

Some pictures for the FOC-HARIBE!!!

FOC DAY 1- GL TECK HONG,AGL CHEAH YEE, SIN WEI


Everyone Looks so innocent and Fresh.... but later... hmph Haha

DAY 2-- @NTU, JURONG POINT


HARIBE?? HARIPIG?? HYBRID haha!!!

AFTER GHOSTWALK- IT IS ABOUT 2AM!!!


Day 3- Combined games with AMCISA, Secret Partner Games and Explore@ NTU
Cant find my combine games photo, but the funny thing is, there are 3 JIA YI in our group. So, our group name is 1+1+1=3.. hahaha.. 3 cheers, and 3 cheers to JIA YI..!!
The secret partner games is basically talking to someone u dont know as the blindfold u. Errr, find it kinda weird, but anyway the terminate the games in the end. After I've used up all my energy in the combined games, I've to walk around NTU to find the place in the clue... (tiring!!!)


Near Canteen B
At the beautiful ADM rooftop

Lee Wee Nam Library and HARIBE



Some intergroup telematch

DAY 4- Explore SG

Route. Bus to Boonlay Mrt----> Chinatown -----> Dhoby Ghout Walk to Orchard------> Bugis Walk to City Hall------> NTU
NTU

Bus 179

German@ BoonLay station

Swiss @ Chinatown

She iz from vienna


Doing something stupid @ orchard Rd( infront of Plaza Sing)
On the way to Orchard, Snap Shot with visitors, Bet they think we are mad.


Not missing the visitor centre with visitors, Cute family.

Place I missed the most after shift to Boon Lay, No more TAKA or FarEast.

Memorial Park, wanted to visit thr for very long, at last i got a chance.

Another way to write Calligraphy....




Esplanade, SLANTED

Huh, Y u guys pointing at me, smile smile, They say I M A FAKE FRESHIE!! I M NOT
The Guy with nlack shirt, grey pants is the Pretender.
Haha, at the food auctions, we used 3500 points to bit a raw carrot. That's our dinner. However, thanks koku for sharing ur pizza, and there's actually a Buffet dinner.

FINALE DAY- SENTOSA

It was not a sunny day that day, too bad, it rain. Spoilt my day... Breakfast Bun.





The 3 bucks slipper- Not really nice to wear.
But It represents our grp Identity...


Sand Castle

Finally the rain pour and v shifted in to the pavillion, and juz wait and play games. So sad, sob.


Back to NTU and this is our Finale night, this is how we eat every lunch and dinner.



Group Geisha, So u think U can be a woman??????
Thanks for all the committee for organizing FOC for the freshie, leading us to the new environment, getting done with all the complicated procedure of administrations, thanks for all the effort. We enjoyed alot, and well done!